I'm really depressed now. On last journal I told about getting own apartment from my mom's boyfriend and told there was still that problem that the owner of that apartment was going to sold away so I wouldn't be able to move there.

That problem was solved last week and that apartment is not going to sold away. But right away, THERE CAME ANOTHER PROBLEM AND NOW I REALLY CAN'T MOVE THERE! Just now my mom found out that her boyfriend has very much unpaid bills and that's why she can't let him to live with her and that's why I also can't move to his apartment. So I have to get my stuff out from there this weekend and also beware if my mom's boyfriend is going to do something horrible to us.

This is very annoying because I also just made a deal opening internet-connection to there and it was going to be opened next monday. But now I have to close that connection!

Seriously, bad things like this are happening to me all the time and I can't take this anymore! I think I'm losing my mind because I feel like I'm cursed or something, because all this bad luck that has been on me for years now, can't be just normal bad luck. Also I'm still very lonely so I have to be with this apartment problem all alone. And really, I've now tried to get friends at school more harder than ever, but hasn't helped and I've gotten rejected all the time. Also I've been having artblock now and that's why I haven't got finished anything art now and that also depresses me. But luckily I still have some friends outside the school...

You surely think that getting other apartment can't be that hard. But you know what, getting own apartment over here is nearly impossible, like getting a job as well!

I can't really take this anymore. Why every time when something seems to be going fine, something bad happens?! Same time everyone else has only just good luck and gets own apartments and jobs and friends so easily and everyone has fun all the time, but not me! WHAT I'VE DONE WRONG!? WHY BAD THINGS KEEPS HAPPENING TO ME!!?

Sorry about this ranting. I don't know does anyone of you care about this, but I just told why I'm now more depressed than ever before. You maybe think that this can't be that bad, but for me it is that bad especially because things like this keeps happening to me all the time. I won't still give up and I try to find other apartment, though it feels impossible...